Goodbye August , HELLO September!

So today is the last day in August , and while this last month has had a few great things to come from it , mostly it wasn't a great month for me. I am very ready to welcome September in here in a few hours. In August I have had a self caused seizure because I wanted to do stupid things. I have had a lot of problems with my mom and with my depression. But on the plus side I did get offered to move in with my dad for awhile , yet another reason I'm ready for September. With the coming of the new month I have decided that there are a few things that I am going to do. First I am going to quit smoking within this month , it may take the whole month but I will do it before September ends. I want to lose another 10lbs this month. I will work on getting a handle on my depression. The first two will be easier to accomplish then the last one , only because depression is something that doesn't just go away it will be an every day struggle but its time for me to come to terms with some things and its time for me to let go of things that no matter what I will never be able to change. I also want to be the big sister that my 4 little sister in North Carolina deserve , these last few years I am actually really glad they have not been around me because I have been no where near a good influence for those girls and they deserve better. So for those girls I promise I will get my life back on track , no matter what it takes. I don't want them to make the mistakes I have or be to the places I have been.

Well I can't wait to see what trials this new month will bring but I sure am hoping it will be better than August was. Hope you guys have a great month , Ill keep you guys up to date with how I'm doing on my goals.

Love you all

xoxoxo

My Boys

                    These guys right here are some of the most down to earth people I have ever met! They are doing what they love and working on making their dreams come true. They put in hours upon hours of hard work into their music , and they have come so far! I got the privilege of hearing their music a year ago.  Like all band they have had hard times but things are looking up for them now. They are far more than just a band. They are friends and even greater then that they are a family. They do what they love but they don't just do it for themselves they do it for the fans. I know that sound cliche but its the truth. They listen to their fans and they realize they would not be able to do what they love with out them. Also they spend a lot of time getting to know their fans. I am privileged to call myself a WAHF girl and be a part of this amazing family. I have gotten to know each one of them on a different level than I ever though I would. Some I knew before the band and other I got to know as they came along. Go and check them out. their web site is in a link in the post below or you can hit them up on facebook. Did I mention they have a UK tour in the works?? At least I think its the UK.



Love you all
xoxoxo

Me

Yupp thats me Ive been blogging for the past 2 years off and on mostly off but every now and then I have something to say. I figured I would let you get to know me a little more than just my posts , because they are my thoughs but I think its time for you to really know me. So to start off my name is Juliea , I'm 18 getting ready to turn 19 on December 23. I am outgoing people say but I'm actually really shy at first. I am a christian but I'm not the biggest fan of organized religion , mainly because its pretty much a bunch of rules when God even said out of the 10 comandments the greats is to love one another as you love yourself. I don't think God wanted us to worship him in a box. They are also the most hypocritacl people I have ever met. Thats besides the point though. I listen to a ton of different types of music but I am a huge supporter of local music. Some of my best friends are actually in this awesome band called When All Hope Fails. http://www.wahfband.com/#!home/mainPage Go check them out they are actually really good. I spend most of my time alone , some call me a loner but I think of myself as an indepentent person.
   
  I am strong minded and have a lot of opinions I just don't always share them. I hate conflict but seem to get into it all the time. Yet just another reason I keep to myself more often then not. I smile a lot but im not always happy. I just cover it up with a smile. Just like everyone im human and have been through my fair share of hard times. I but im trying this new thing where I look for the positive in every bad thing even if it seems almost impossible. I used to have severe depression and I still do. Every day brings new trials that sometimes makes it hard to see the light in all the darkness but its there I just have to work harder on finding it. One day I will I know it I just have to work on it.

A best friend is someone that isnt always easy to find. This girl I have known for about 9 months now and I am way closer to her than I ever was my last best friend. (whom I didnt drop btw we parted ways and are working on maybe being friends again) But that girl in the picture with me her name is Lacy , we have had our ups and downs but we refuse to go to bed mad at each other..There is nothing me and her can not sit down and talk out. She has been there for me so many times whether it was because she had to come pick me up from my ex's house at 7 am because he was being a total jerk and I was bawling my eyes out , or I was just sitting at home alone and bored. One phone call and she is there. When we don't see each other for days at a time those days seem like every day is a week. We are completly crazy and may not be very girly but why should we have to be? We are who we are and we are not going to change for you.
      

That man , thats my dad. He may not have given birth to me but he loves me like he did. I could not ask for a better dad he is my best friend and parent all wrapped into one. He has done things that by no means did he have to. When im hurting he is there to confort me , when im scared he is there to tell me everything is going to be okay , and when I feel like I have no where to turn he is there to welcome me in. With out this man I have no clue where I would be today , he has played a huge part in making me who I am now , and he has only been my dad for a little over 2 years now. But in those 2 years he has though me more than I could ever even imagine was possible. I love him with my whole heart and I don't think he will ever understand how much that is. And I promise you dad that I will make you proud.

         Well thats pretty much who I am , I am who I am because of the people I have mentioned in this plus soo many more. Like my girl Brittinie who i have known for years and moved on me , but we are still super close. and people like that. They are each a HUGE part of my life and a part of me would be missing with out them. I hope this helped you get to know me just a little better than you did before.


Love you guys
xoxoxo

Moving time

Hey guys , so somethings in my life have recently come to the point that I have decided that it would just be best to move. So im packing up my things and leaving for North Carolina here soon (as soon as my dad gets me my plane ticket). I have lived with my mom for the past 16 years , well now im moving in with my dad 9 hours away from everything I know.  Honestly though I think im more excited than I have even been and its not just because I will be only 3 hours away from a beach. Don't worry though my blog will be going with me. I get to have a whole new set of adventures and you guys get to go on them with  me now. Well you get to a little after I have already done them but im glad I will get to experiance these new things with you guys. Im excited to make new friends and spend time with  my dad.

Hope you guys are ready for some new adventures.

xoxoxo

Im back

I know I have not posted in a very long time but tonight something has really been on my mind. I don't understand how a parent can not want to be in their childs life when all they want is for them to be there. How do you just ignore them when they are crying out for you? I understand that there are more and more parents now days that are like that and it breaks my heart. Because why would you even want to bring a child into this world if you didnt want them? Or just keep walking in and out on their lives? Kinda like your teasing them saying yeahh ill make my apperances but other than that you dont get me at all? Or when your child is crying out for help and you tell them to stop being a whinny little bitch and to make themselves happy. I don't think I will ever be able to understand any of this. I hate that kids have to go through this all the time. Ive been there and gotten through it but some of my friends are also here now and I hurt for them. Because I know excatly what its like.


Sorry for the deppresing first post in a long time , but its not like anyone even read this anyways.
Well I love you all
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