So today is the last day in August , and while this last month has had a few great things to come from it , mostly it wasn't a great month for me. I am very ready to welcome September in here in a few hours. In August I have had a self caused seizure because I wanted to do stupid things. I have had a lot of problems with my mom and with my depression. But on the plus side I did get offered to move in with my dad for awhile , yet another reason I'm ready for September. With the coming of the new month I have decided that there are a few things that I am going to do. First I am going to quit smoking within this month , it may take the whole month but I will do it before September ends. I want to lose another 10lbs this month. I will work on getting a handle on my depression. The first two will be easier to accomplish then the last one , only because depression is something that doesn't just go away it will be an every day struggle but its time for me to come to terms with some things and its time for me to let go of things that no matter what I will never be able to change. I also want to be the big sister that my 4 little sister in North Carolina deserve , these last few years I am actually really glad they have not been around me because I have been no where near a good influence for those girls and they deserve better. So for those girls I promise I will get my life back on track , no matter what it takes. I don't want them to make the mistakes I have or be to the places I have been.
Well I can't wait to see what trials this new month will bring but I sure am hoping it will be better than August was. Hope you guys have a great month , Ill keep you guys up to date with how I'm doing on my goals.
Love you all
xoxoxo
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